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Ihad become a changed person with new connections and resources, someone with a mind open to all possibilities. That was until the recent development took place with the ceremony and the departure of my “friends.” Since this happened, my mind seemed to have reverted back to the old limited state in which it had been prior to my awareness. I only discovered this when I tried to pick up the pieces and continue with my life once the dust had settled from my ceremonial affair. My first thoughts were to extend my studies, particularly as I had done so well with my science degree. I went on a brief refresher course with an intention to further where I had left off, perhaps on to the next level. When I embarked on this study I was completely shocked. That cast iron willingness I developed for learning seemed to have mysteriously withered and I couldn’t understand why. My ability to grasp facts and figures also seemed absent and I was left wondering how I ever managed to even get through the absolute basics of the science degree. It really felt as though I was now sitting the studies for another person, the bright student who regularly attended this college the previous year. Needless to say, I didn’t continue with this extended study. It was quite shocking to realise how my mind had reverted back to a time when I really didn’t care for anything academic. Just as before, my mind seemed both unsettled and unwilling to apply itself to study, my concentration span resembled an insect’s and the new ability to grasp things (a granted gift I believe) seemed to have diminished. It wasn’t for lack of trying or the effects of the recent events that caused this decline as I genuinely felt different. I find it amazing how alien interaction can make or break a person’s mind this way but then maybe it was deliberate engineering. This was another unique and notable point in my saga of interaction. I hadn’t read anything exactly like this before. There are a number of cases where people have reported new or creative breakthroughs following exposure to alien intervention or the paranormal where they have taken to art or spirituality. There are also cases where abductees have developed social and ecological consciences and expressed great concerns for the environment, but not once have I come across a case where the gifts are actually taken back. I felt bare and out on a limb. Somebody had used me all along and then departed leaving me as a shell of who I was before. It even felt like I had 92 to take a back seat, which was extremely useful.