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The strange liaison had heralded an even stranger period ahead. I recall the next few months as being a type of automated daze where I just went through the motions of life like a robot. I seemed to suffer patches of amnesia where I wouldn’t to remember certain events. It wasn’t so much the events themselves that I struggled to remember, it was the “why’s” and “how’s” behind them. I seemed to be doing things ritually without question. The regular evening visits to secluded places such as the park had continued and I often remember looking forward to these times. As the sun would set I felt a buzz of excitement coming on as though I would be off on a mysterious journey somewhere to meet special people. Consciously, I can only remember these journeys being solitary. Life didn’t appear to taking its usual toll during these months. I seemed to be enjoying a peaceful acceptance of life where I just took things as they came without question or criticism. I again need to refer to my comparisons to the dream state or Oz Factor because the inconsistencies of a dream were all there. I accepted the outrageous and don’t remember much about it. Whatever state had been induced, I don’t recall it interfering with my daily activities. If anything, it allowed me to sail through them with less stress than I would normally encounter. My studies were not a problem and never neglected regardless of any oddities going on. Ever since I decided to take on full time study with this science degree, I enjoyed a whole new capacity of accelerated learning. The daily attendance of college and hours of study were a pleasure rather than a chore and I was keeping abreast of my course work despite my lack of academic foundation. The transformation from the boy who didn’t even manage a CSE was in contrast a phenomenon! Even outside study I would read exuberantly from subjects ranging from science to religion and sometimes try to rewrite extracts from the Bible in the way I interpreted them. My fascination with the paranormal was as unrelenting as ever and I seemed to be outgrowing that sceptical patch I had been going through (the induced scepticism, I strongly suspect.) My activities with CES had continued, although I felt there was deterioration in the group due to a lull in the interest from members. The meetings would continue and topics would still be covered but nothing seemed to go any further and that discouraged people. As agreed from the beginning, we could not produce the proverbial spaceship out of the blue which of course meant that CE5 would not live up to its name by accomplishing these things. We would become another study/research group listed in the classifieds of a 61