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More will emerge and any new memories I receive from now on will be compiled for a second book of my saga, if there ever is a second book. Ihave no interest in trying to extract more half-baked information from myself only to encourage the sceptic’s view that it is actually irrational or misinterpreted. It is too easy to extract and taint insufficient knowledge this way when it simply isn’t ready. Memories choose to leak at inappropriate times and those times have proved to lack any sort of pattern other than being activated by something but at least now I will be prepared for that. Only once I believed I activated something deliberately by going to sleep one night and requesting it, something which seems to work, but I won’t be trying that again out of fear, fear of what I might actually get from that abyss. There isn’t anything now that I particularly want to trigger as I am still in the process of making head and tail of what I’ve already been given. To be honest, my energy levels are left shatteringly low and I would much rather get on with my life now and enjoy the anonymity I have insisted upon, counting my blessings that I have not been devastated by these encounters. That may be a rarity for someone plunged unwillingly into unexplored paranormal territory, but then my feelings of drainage have proved to be the drawback. Para-psychological interaction with its mind control and disruptive revelation seems to have taken its toll on my actual life-force because I believe that is where the interaction takes place. It has taken a great deal out of me and quite often I feel particularly shell-like as though a spiritual vacuum has been somehow operated. It was very pleasing that these new revelations did take place offering this hope against a backdrop that seemed quite incomprehensible but perhaps the drainage I feel is the price paid for that hope. It seems I have paid for new information. My new insight will keep me going and on a confident quest for answers instead of psychiatry. Ihave requested help along the way without going into any detail of why my mind and energy has been sapped like it has. My recent holiday abroad helped me to recoup on a certain level but I feel the effects of this unknown interaction go untraceably deep. I remember reading Karla Turner’s Into the Fringe, a story about alien abduction, in which she learned that towards the end of her episode, alien beings were implanting and extracting information from her actual aura. This was interesting because I often felt that data was somehow seeded and harvested in me on a level that wasn’t really mental or physical. I felt that energy was being manipulated at all times and when information was released into my consciousness it followed with a drawn, 139