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"That first glimpse of consciousness in its creative Morning, its seductive Dawn, gives it vertigo; it feels its indivisible quality of attention (through which the homogenous Voidness and intimate Selfhood of such Voidness was — but a 'moment' before — uninterruptedly sustained) being inexorably displaced, unstoppably drawn offside and diffused in the potential Myriad — conferring, as it does so, actuality to that potential by virtue of the authenticating acknowledgement contained in that very concession of Attention." "What about the fascination of Consciousness with its potential Logoic creativity?" the Colonel asked. "What about its Love for the burgeoning offspring it finds within Itself?" "Yes, that fascination and that Love are there too, virtually at the same time. But the responses are distinct. That's why it may be said that Consciousness really exists in an ambivalent state, at this inchoate degree of Its own Creative Process. "The aspect of Consciousness which experiences the vertigo of rapidly—displacing and self—dividing attention, however, generates specific qualities around itself. First of all it expresses as trepidation, fear. It recognizes the requirement for the intimate investment and indeed one-to-one association, at some level of the whole—being value of Identity with respect to the delimiting and restrictive properties indicative of the Creative pattern; it greatly fears that requirement, which it nonetheless knows as a term of the Creative process voraciously claiming the whole—being value of Attention. It fears a real lapse of consciousness through such intimate association of Identity with scaled-down and internally—divisive terms; and it has an immediate real fear of a large magnitude of the specific potential anticipated within Its creative incubation (the character of which is largely borne on the very implication of that effectually—masked and thus amnesic 1 ert ae out oN "You mean, it perceives within Itself that the functional restriction of Identity in lighting up the conditional patterns—of—identification on the cosmic gameboard involves a real lapse, a real internal self—division and thus a friction or abrasion that can translate out into all the unwholesome things that really do arise in the field c too woen ot oa TD "Yes, exactly. Although the Logoic pattern and all its features are born in the indivisible unity and whole-being Identity of Love, although they express that Love eternally as the intimate coinvolvement and mutuality of all terms, nonetheless the lapse of the whole—being value of Identity in one—to—one equation with halved polar terms and oblique perspectives drags the value of Love into those schismatic equations as well. Thus Love appearsto be polarized, delimited through survivalist and reproductive drives etc. There arises an adversarial condition as the Identity—integrating value of Love finds itself focused through a contingent unity, an egoically organized nucleus required to secure and domesticate its specific continuity from a refractory field of counterposed conditions continuously interrupting that continuity while provisionally sustaining its elements through coinherence and interchange." "It certainly can, wherever that lapse of Identity produces an effectual 3rd—density state of consciousness in which Self-reflection is potentiated but at the same time functionally masked from un—mediated Self-recognition as Whole—being value. "And of course it's this potentiality, with its suddenly—yawning abyss of implied horrors, that Consciousness immediately glimpses in its ontological 'daybreak'. As consciousness scarcely begins to awaken to its internal creative potential, it finds itself virtually swallowed by a chasm of terrors, a miasma of runaway states and nightmare 'scenes' made all-the—more objectionable because of their extreme contrast and qualitative distance from the undivided Well-being of Consciousness in its cosmic Sleep, its undisturbed state of flotational Void in which attention could rest on an infinitely—homogenous cloud of Self-contemplation..." 189 T-Bird_Vs_The_Flying_saucers.htm mode of identification)." of manifestation as a result of ‘losing the whole picture’..." "So 'love' finds itself automatically on fighting terms."