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86 has happened has been not to hurt me. | feel like a piece of myself that was missing has been reconnected. I’ve had deep spiritual experiences and feelings since October 1992, all of a personal nature. | am uneasy sometimes, but | don’t think I’m afraid any more.” In fact, she reported a very sudden change in her emotions that occurred in the winter of that year. “I went to bed afraid,” she said, “and woke up the next day very detached,” as if she’d been tranquilized and reassured. Her initial thoughts about the alien agenda, however, still made a “knot” in her stomach. “It’s really all for their purpose,” she said, “something that was prepared and developed long ago.” And she felt she had been somehow given a choice to accept them, although it doesn’t matter to them. “Either way, they win.” Jane didn’t know why she was taken for alien involvement, nor what exactly she had been trained or prepared to do. Her only clue is a sense that she is “supposed” to introduce people close to her to the reality of alien existence. “You know, sometimes | feel used,” she commented. “Is all this of my free will for good, or am | a puppet?” She did feel that the aliens have put information into a deeper level of her mind, as if she were “stuffed full” with suppressed knowledge. Further, she said she didn’t feel ready to know until now. She saw herself as “one of millions in a grassroots movement who are being stimulated” into a “gradual realization.” Jane also sensed that the aliens had fostered within her mind a mistrustful attitude toward the government. But she was not at all sure of the source of any of the events and communications because she felt that both positive and negative entities or groups may have interacted with her. As for the aliens themselves, she has only their actions and words to guide her assessment. Once when she telepathically asked them for a better term to call them than “alien,” she was given the epithet “Voyagers,” and they said that the awakening humans were being made into “harbingers of discord, discontent, revolution.” Judging by their actions, Jane is not always reassured. “We're not seeing the true intelligence behind all these scenes,’ she said. The fact that they put us through episodes of “set-up scenes” and “absurd stuff’ frightens her. “I’m afraid we might find that intelligence so cold and impersonal,” she said, “that it would be unbearable.” VIII - Angie The youngest of the eight women in this project, Angie is a delightful, extremely intelligent woman whose conscious memories of abductions and encounters could fill a book on their own. She first contacted me after reading INTO THE FRINGE and briefly described a number of incidents in her experiences that closely paralleled many things my family and | had witnessed. As in the case of Beth, Pat, and Lisa, Angie remembered abductions involving apparently military personnel before our contact, and since that time there have been several others of a most disturbing nature. When we first began to correspond, however, Angie was not at all concerned about the possibility of detrimental military activity. After all, the aliens who had been abducting her assured her that the humans in their company were “controlled” by them, and since Angie