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84 “| ‘understand’ I’m to get all my notes together for Karla and her work,” she wrote. “What | have will be very helpful to her and is to be given freely as she asks. I’m to make special efforts to share all with her. She is very important as a voice that will introduce increased realization throughout the world. She is one of many who introduce the awareness to awakening.” The next message, on June 8, concerned something for which Jane felt she was being prepared or taught. “| understand if | meditate on my prayer list for healing at least once a day, then | will be shown results,” she recorded. “That is the next step in my progression of activation. How far it will go will be determined by my level of discipline, passion, desire, and will.” On June 27, Jane woke from a dream about UFOs, but she couldn’t recall any details. She did recall, however, coming to partial consciousness in the midst of the dream and trying to retain its details for later when she would be awake. But all she could remember was the briefest scene. “At one point | was standing looking at myself, and another time myself was behind me,” she wrote that morning. But the notes were interrupted just then as a sudden realization came into her mind. It wasn’t exactly the same as when the previous “communications” occurred, but it felt akin to that. “All of a sudden | can remember the dream lesson given to me last night,” Jane said. “It was illustrated and demonstrated to me the truth that | am truly a spiritual being animating a body. |am something separate from the body. The body is a tool, and | am entrapped in it. But | can separate from the body before death, and have done it many times, without conscious knowledge. | am a pure spiritual being when without the body, and | will be again. Patience is required. | am a spiritual being only animating a shell. The body is nothing, the soul is all.” On September 30, a telepathic communication told Jane that she was now “ready for the next level” and “the beginning of other things.” She was told that some suppressed memories and information would be allowed to emerge “so | may retrieve that which will carry me forward.” She saw herself as “a single mirror of mankind, aware of choosing either to “uplift” or “tear down” by her actions and intentions. The following month, Jane experienced two more communications. “| understand I’m to attempt to rid myself of all violent and negative tendencies, to let go of controlling impulses,” she was told during the first one. And the second one was simply, “I understand truth is a lonely territory. Truth is lonely. Each to his own. To disdain is incorrect.” Jane had a recent flashback that seemed to fulfill the promise made in one of the communications, about the release of suppressed memories. It concerned the UFO “dream” of December 31, 1992, and the saucer that transformed into a globe, came up close to her face, and forced her to fall. The new memories filled in the details much differently, however. After first watching a black saucer-shaped craft drop “from the clouds like a cookie cutter,” Jane sensed “several intelligences” in the ship. Next, she saw it descend and transform into the sphere with four legs and designs inscribed on its surface, from which she now sensed a single intelligence. In its third permutation, the object “rose up and turned into a gray-black sphere with antennae” but no legs. “| remember the dark, gun-metal-gray globe with antennae,” she described, “having an intelligent awareness of me. When its attention came full on me, it took me over and there was nothing but me and it. Its physical force was like a huge wind without noise pushing against me. When | said hello, it was pleased and responded to me. When its attention came on me, | was its sole interest. It...was focusing entirely and completely on me. “The antennae ‘disappeared’ when it came up close. There was an eye, large, anda