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58 flashbacks, and remembered events in dreams. She has engaged in telepathic communications with some group of entities, at times generated by them and at times by her. And, as usual, there have been peripheral and confirming external evidence in some instances. Among the types of non-human entities Anita has encountered are the ubiquitous Grays, another group she calls the "Tans,” a blue creature, and an off-white creature whose skin she described as “dry and leathery,” in addition to the humanoids in the red suits. Although she is conscious of a single event involving the Grays, Anita came away from the experience with a definite idea about the creature’s attitude toward her. “As far as the Grays go,” she said, “I have only one memory of an encounter, and it was not pleasant.” In the sketchy recollection, Anita was inside what appeared to be a typical craft. She was being escorted through a corridor, without any sense of the destination or of any preceding scenario. “There was the feeling of dislike on the part of the one [a Gray] who was leading me down the corridor,” she recalled. “I mean, he didn’t like me or just didn’t like humans. It was as if he had a somewhat distasteful function to perform. By the way,” she added, “this dude had a short, squatty-looking blue creature with him. | nicknamed him Grimace.” Like so many others in these situations, with no accurate, authoritative explanations or sources to help them understand the aliens and their activities, Anita has had to invent her own terms and phrases. The nickname above is one such example, as is the name “Tan” which she uses for a particular group of entities. Describing these same entities, other abductees have used any number of different names because no one name has yet been established as the proper one. Anita has recalled several encounters with the Tan group in the past few years. She said that they are very similar in appearance to the creature in the drawing on Whitley Strieber’s COMMUNION, which, according to other abductees, is more like what they would call a Gray. But Anita clearly distinguishes between the gray creature that was leading her down the corridor in one encounter, and the Tans, with whom she is more familiar. “When | first saw their picture on the book cover/’ she said, “I immediately thought, Hello, little friend. | know that for some reason | feel protective of them.” Her relationship with the Tans, unlike her one impersonal encounter with the Gray, involves a different degree of intimacy, apparently as part of their deliberate programming of the abductee. “| have never sensed the dislike that | did with the Gray,” Anita reported. “[The Tans] seem to be very concerned with making us feel love for them.” But Anita has proven to be quite aware of this psychological manipulation on the aliens’ part and has thus been able to see through some of their intentions or motivations. “| recall one [Tan] looking into my eyes,” she described from an encounter, “and making me feel extreme love from him. | put my hands on his face and said, Too bad it isn’t real, meaning the feeling of love that he was projecting into my soul.” Indeed, in spite of the aliens’ intentions to convey such a caring relationship, Anita has continued to suffer much of the same anxiety that other abductees report. “When | said | felt protective towards the little critters,” she cautioned, “please believe that it is [a feeling] induced by them. The rest of the time, all | feel is apprehension during the day and dread of going to bed at night.” This anxiety very often causes disruptions of the abductee’s sleep patterns, usually occurring nightly at approximately the same time, as happens with Anita. “| do still get scared sometimes,” she confessed, “and | still wake up at 3:00 to 3:34 a.m. and huddle under the covers frightened and lie there with my eyes glued to the bedroom door.”