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28 Polly and Sam reported these and a number of other experiences for almost a year, many of which seemed to be reflections or memories of fairly current experiences. And once she felt more comfortable with our relationship, she was able to address the sexual issue and share the painful memories from her childhood. ‘The area of my psychology which | feel has been most damaged by ‘them’ or by some very early influence,” she confided, “is the area of my sexual concepts. At approximately age four, | became obsessed with sadomasochistic sexual imagery. The images involved a little girl ona flat table similar to a doctor’s exam table, but | think it may have been metallic looking, silver metallic, a little grayer than actual silver. | remember being obsessed with these images day in and day out, and | would try to detach from them by saying that the little girl was not me, but yet at the same time | knew it was. “Sometimes there would be one ‘person’ doing things to the little girl and sometimes several. There were generally those who observed. | had the sense of both males and females present. Occasionally a female would do a procedure, but more often a male.” There were machines involved, as well as probes and needles. ‘The intrusions involved what | now understand to be the genital area, but | did not understand at the time, as well as the rectum. Also, | do recollect needles to the navel, and this now makes sense when | read adult women’s accounts of intrusions through the navel. My sense of the ‘people,’ if it ever was clear, is now indistinct. My early medical history does not include anything like this. “One thing | did which could have been a cry for help and an attempt to resolve this situation was that | drew pictures of these events. | remember especially at five and six drawing the little girl on the table and the ‘people’ around her with the intrusive machines. | showed these pictures to my mother, but | have no recollection of her reaction except that | don’t think she shamed me. “If | had been molested by adult family members | don’t think | would have had images of an exam table and needles associated with machinery, especially at ages three and four. | think these images had to have come from some source outside my own imagination. This early influence imprinted my sexuality with the dynamics of sadomasochism. | feel this imprinting set me up to be victimized and set me up to expect all sexual encounters to involve humiliation by a dominator.” In fact, she said, whenever she found herself in ‘power-sex’ situations, ‘There was a voice that would talk to me and say, Everything is right on schedule. Everything is going as planned. But the plan did not prove benevolent toward me!” The overall discernible effects of all their experiences on Polly and Sam, to this point, are several. Sam has an overly mature outlook for his age, evincing an interest in questions of cosmic importance including reincarnation and the history of the human race. And, after the sperm-taking scenario, he is also, according to Polly, very uncomfortable with the idea of alien intrusions upon his developing sexuality. For Polly, too, the sexual aspects of her life have been altered by these events. She avoids sexual involvements now, in an attempt to regain control over the compulsions that have caused many problems for her in the past. She has no explanation for the alien intrusions into her family’s life, only a strong sense that this involvement has been with her for a very long time. Most of it has been unseen. In addition, or as part of the UFO events, Polly has experienced internal communications from “spirits,” although she cannot identify them more specifically. “They so often enter or | enter them in a sense,” she explained, “in a sense in which we each or all allow each other to be there simultaneously. | don’t know if this is a UFO thing, but they are multi-dimensionals.”