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107 “What did they want you to know?” Barbara persisted. "That I’m not supposed to [believe],” she said. “I can pretend to be confirmed. | have to pretend that | believe it, say the prayers.” In the second session, Amy retrieved a brief recollection of another “dream” encounter with a Gray she had in April 1993. “| had dreamt that some UFOs were picking people up here and there,” she told me later. “Certain people, not at random. | stood and waited for them to come, | was supposed to wait. They shined a bright light on me, and then | was in the ship. First, | was facing a very shiny surface, like mirrors, then | turned around. | saw a lot of Grays at some instruments or controls, very busy. “One Gray turned to face me, and | knew him. In fact, he was the same Gray | saw [in November 1992] in front of the moon or light. We talked with our eyes. | felt that he and | were very close once, we had been together once somewhere, and we had been the ‘same.’ It was like we were twins. | actually missed him! | wanted to go back to ‘before’ because | was remembering something. He told me | was to ‘stay here.’ | guess he meant in the present.” She also described the identity she felt with the “twin” alien. “| felt that | was one of them,” she said, “and | was thinking of Barbara as ‘a human with a mouth.’ It was like looking through the eyes of a Gray! If | think of it as | am-human-they seem cold and uncaring. If | remember the way it felt to be one of them, in the dream, it is not cold, not uncaring, just the way it is.” In the hypnosis session, Amy could see the two of them in the bedroom, engaged in telepathic conversation, and feeling an old kinship with the entity. When Barbara asked why the Gray was there, Amy said, “I’m not supposed to know.” “Ask what you are supposed to know,” Barbara suggested. “He said in the next decade people will be expected to think the same,” she reported, “being taught to think the same, like them. Make them easier.” Expanding later on what she was told, Amy said that in the coming decade the aliens doing the abductions would also promote a program in which people will be, “taught to think the same. The sad part was that everyone will think it’s normal and it is their idea. Even being an ‘individual’ will seem real but not in actuality. He and other aliens are trying to stop the process. It’s been going on for a long time already.” Under hypnosis, as Amy tried to explain this information, she suddenly said, “He tells me to remember the rules. I’m trying. He was trying to help me remember. Departure from the program will result in synapse damage. It’s so hard, without words, with words.” “What was that about?” Barbara asked. “Do what you know to do,” Amy parroted the statement of rules from the Gray, “be human, be what you are. Rule number two: No memories, rule number two.” These “rules” were given to Amy very early in her experiences with unidentified entities, and they always included a program to inhibit her talking about these events. An entry in her journal at age seventeen records one of the “rules”: “I must not repeat previous mistakes.” Amy said the mistake she was not supposed to repeat was the “mistake” of telling her mother about the things she had experienced. The first time as an adult when she tried to tell someone else, external interference stopped her, as the journal entry for December 16,1979 shows. “| was writing a letter to my boyfriend tonight,” she recorded. “I was listening to the radio. When | began writing of the difference between what the heart feels and what the brain knows [a lesson imparted to her by the Council], the radio began emitting every tone