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106 in a field behind their apartment, waving goodbye to the UFO. “When | woke up in bed,” she said, “I was still cold from being outside. | got up and went to make sure the kids were back in bed, that’s how real it seemed to me." In all of these previous events and dreams and memories, Amy had recalled nothing about actual aliens or being inside a UFO. The dream of November 1992, however, where she clearly saw the gray, masked female “non-Earth representative,” took her, reluctantly, to a much more intense level of recognition that the alien phenomenon was a part of her life. And when Amy realized how numerous and complex the unusual events had been since her childhood, she decided to explore some of those memories through regressive hypnosis. As a counselor, she was familiar with the theory of regression work, but she had never experienced it. Amy arranged to meet with Barbara Bartholic in the summer of 1992 and went through two regression sessions, hoping to learn more about the part of her life that had been kept from her. In the first regression, they explored some early childhood and adolescent memories, but it was extremely difficult for Amy verbally to relate much of what she recalled in the trance state. It became apparent that Amy’s response was inhibited by a severe block against talking about her experiences, especially when she was able to remember a threat made to her by a Gray when she was very young. In that fragmented memory, the Gray told her that if she told anyone about the visit, her cat would be killed. Amy did try to tell her mother, however, and the kitten subsequently died, although today Amy is reluctant to believe the death was a deliberate act by the aliens. She also briefly remembered an experience a few years later, of a huge craft of some sort hovering just above her father’s garden. She told Barbara that she was looking at it very closely, wanting to push it away, but somehow she received a clear impression that said, “Don't touch.” Amy said she did not want to go into the craft, but she was taken inside, where she saw the same Gray who had threatened to kill the cat. “| saw myself talking to someone inside it,” she said. T wasn’t supposed to tell. This ‘guy’ telling me they would kill my cat was inside it. We were near the doorway, and he was taller than | and his face was right up in my face.” Next, she and Barbara explored the memory she had at age fifteen of something jabbing or kicking her and the bed shaking. “During the session,” she said later, “I saw myself going to the back door. | couldn't understand because | looked sort of ghost-like and | was floating, not walking.” As she tried to look at this event, however, that same scene kept repeating, of her going to the door and reaching for the knob, and she could not get past that point. “I guess it was too hard to look at,” she said. “I remember the actual feelings of something in my room and being kicked or jabbed in my back-it felt so real. It was terrifying!” The third episode they explored involved a childhood “lesson” about religion. “Churches are not Goa',” she reported being told, “statues and pictures are not God. Priests and nuns are not God. Nobody sins.’ That doesn’t make sense.” “What else did they tell you?” Barbara asked. "To look beyond the pictures,” Amy replied. “It’s all lies. That made me mad, that all nuns and the priest were lying. Why did they tell me that when it’s not true? They said Jesus was something like a soldier or something, supposed to lead people in some kind of direction.”