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103 many years. Amy’s progressive self-rediscovery is a story of its own. layer after layer of repression and denial were stripped away as she read back through the journals and realized that some powerful phenomenon had been part of her life from the beginning. Even as young as four, Amy had a feeling of “influence” from an unseen source. By seven, she had recognized this source more directly, calling it the “Many in One” because she could hear many people speaking in unison. In adolescence Amy called this force the “Council.” “At first | only heard them talking to one another, not to me,” she explained. “I have only heard them audibly a few times, like when they told me my mother was going to die (she did) and other events that would happen in the future (the events did happen),” she explained. “I usually sense a dialogue of symbols, images, and concepts. When | ‘listen,’ | forget how to speak, words cease to exist, and | forget what using vocal cords feels like. | call it the ‘language without words.’ No trance states.” She also had a brief yet vivid memory of seeing a small, dark figure move rapidly into her bedroom doorway and crouch down one night. And when she was ten, Amy recalled walking alone into a field near her house very early one morning. She had no idea why she was going there, and she couldn’t remember what happened when she arrived nor much about her return home. In 1965, Amy dreamed of being in the back yard and waving goodbye to a UFO hovering above her, and the next moment she woke up surprised to be in her bed. The dream felt so real that she got up to see if the UFO was still nearby. It should be recalled, incidentally, that 1965 was a major “flap” year for UFO sightings and encounters throughout the country. A few months later, Amy went through a sudden internal change of attitudes and interests, began to study the sciences, and blossomed intellectually in school. The psychic element also grew increasingly stronger, and in her later teenage years Amy started having many dreams of an unknown “lady” teaching her intensely about a number of things, beginning with levitation. Although she called them dreams, the teaching sessions had a real effect on Amy, and she once accidentally levitated a bottle of shampoo and almost frightened herself to death. When the sessions began to include instructions on affecting electrical systems, Amy sometimes witnessed the physical, external effects of her ability on appliances in her environment. This is also the time when she accepted the fact that her existence was somehow being guided by the Council. She was led to study certain subjects and was implanted with many concepts and ideas about time, space, physics and other complex thoughts. Altogether, in fact, Amy became aware of a sense of destiny and purpose she couldn't understand but could only feel as a certainty. “I’m scared,” she noted in her journal for January 1971, “because something so unknown and powerful is pulling at me, every moment I’m caught off guard and pulled. I’m being pulled to a state or level of mind | cannot fight...eventually I'll go, but in order that | won't be pulled under I’ve got to prepare. Every time, | shout, ‘I’m not ready, leave me be!’ and if | think of something else I’m okay.” Other entries during this period include the comments, “I know certain things must be done, like a robot | obey,” and “I feel like a messenger. | have always felt my purpose, but | never knew it.” Much of what she received came not in words but in images and concepts. There was one statement, however, in which the words were clear: | am I. |am many. We are many. | am not. Amy said this statement was a sort of “riddle” about the Council. “It referred to my existence as an individual (I am I), my union with all minds (Il am many), my absorption