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SON OF THE SUN vote my time and means to biological research. I gave much thought and some study to the fundamentals of biochemistry, and even to physics. “Then this condition came upon me. For a time I was seized by the same fear, despair and sense of futility that, as a doctor, I had seen fall upon so many others. There were the same futile hopes patients had displayed so many times that perhaps some error might be present in the diagnosis. I could not believe it was now my turn, and I looked desperately here and there for some new discovery by science, an announcement that such conditions were now curable. After all, such news could come any day. I called the Mayo Clinic, the Johns-Hopkins Institute, Cornell and others. There was not evena flicker of hope ir in cases such as mine. «err 4 a ‘ 14 1 “Under the strain and despair, my capacity to serve as a good doctor ended. Rapidly I became resigned to the inevitable. Somehow, after one becomes resigned there is an inner rebirth, when whole lifetimes seem to be lived within short days.” I took in every word in silence as we ate. It was hard for me to believe that this gentle, light-brown-haired man who looked so healthy and handsome was not long for this world. There was a quality that gave to his eyes the appearance of changing from light brown to light blue, and back to brown. His mind, alert and quick, was resilient and tolerant about all things. He seemed to be truly happy, not for the present time, but for a glory he could foresee for mankind. I had the feeling I was in the presence of the “1 1 a I did not say a word, confining myself to listening. Under expanded awareness, produced by the nectar, I needed neither to confirm his words nor submit any opinion, for our minds were in rapport. He continued. “As soon as I became resigned to the inescapable, there was a sudden surge within me; a light, almost visible, flashed all about me, and I was no longer afraid. There was ethereal music at the iri ood D> same time, and I have not yet ceased to hear it.” I drank a little of the nectar. Even this had no more effect 22 most civilized person on earth. roa, 1 ne