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centralized. So that I'm tuning in very closely to these impressions that are being given to me, and then I interpret from a concept to spoken words. I've noticed that my speech pattern is different when I'm doing this. It's like I don't have to stop and think what I'm going to say because it's all already there. It's given to me in a lump sum and all I have to do is to interpret the concept that's being given. In that respect it makes it a lot easier than normal speech. Because you dcn't have to stop and think about words to use, or you don't have to think of the concept that you want to say. All you've got to do is find the proper words. It seems to be a very spontaneous thing. I don't believe I could make it happen. There's something else, another process at work here. But when it's happening I can only interpret the things that are in my ... vocabulary, my life's experi- ences and my familiarity with words in the English language." "I believe it's much more complicated than people think itis. Do you ever feel that this is only coming from your imagination?" ‘In the beginning I wondered about that a lot, because I have a very vivid imagination. All the while I was seeing it, Iwas questioning whether this was imagination or a dream orjust something that I was making up to satisfy your wanting to know something." "But ifthatwere the case, why would you bring up scenes that you didn't feel comfortable with and didn't want to explore?" "I didn't even think of that. It never occurred to me. Iwas just questioning where it was coming from. I feel it would be very easy to give an entirely different interpretation and embellish if 1 wanted to. But for some reason I can't do that. It'sas though I must interpret as accurately as possible what I am seeing. I couldn't change it and inject my fantasies even if I wanted to. It doesn't work that way. There seems to be avery slight difference between what this is and what imagination is. It's very difficult to tell ifyou're imagining or creating this in your own mind or ifit's being spontaneously pro- duced. But with practice you can tell when it's being spontaneously produced. I don't think there's any way I could describe it with words. It'sjust that when someone starts experiencing it, with trial and error you begin to feel the very, very subtle difference between the two. It's a matter of really ... letting go. I don't know how else to describe that. But it's like just trusting what it is and not trying to rationalize anything,just saving what I'm seeing. And let it come out without trying to offer any rationalizations or justifications or any- thing like that. You have tojust go with it and just trust it." The Breakhrough to the Three Spires 89