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Chapter One I have certainly had a number of “High Strangeness” experiences throughout my life that might seem, at first glance, to “fit” into the popularized “alien interaction” scenarios. While I know that some people seem to glory in the idea that they have some sort of connection to “alien intelligences”, I never felt that way, and I certainly wasn’t going to accept such an explanation if I could find another that fit the data better. After all these years, and much study and research, I’m not so sure that the popularized interpretations are at all correct. However, I will deal with that separately at the end of this volume of articles. What is correct is that, beginning in 1985, the “High Strangeness Factor” of my life was bumped up a few notches. My grandmother had died in 1984, and it has taken years for me to be able to articulate what was going on inside me at that point in time. In retrospect, I find that my grandmother’s death was a “gift”, because it was the impetus for asking of deep and burning questions. I was then 32 years old, and my grandmother had been an omnipresent part of my life. What I observed in myself, as I went through this period of grieving, led me to draw a number of conclusions. It seems that, after a time, even if a loss is deep and profound, one eventually becomes accustomed not to expect to hear a certain voice, to see a certain beloved face every day, and a new “history” becomes the new way of being; the loss is no longer acutely painful. This new “custom” becomes the reality, as though the universe in which one now exists is not the same universe as the former one But then, one has to ask: what happens to the love between people when one of them dies? Where does it go? Even if the reality is a new one, so to say, does that mean that the old one has ceased to exist entirely? Platonic Noumenal which is ‘expressed in Platonic Noumenal terms, yet which is ‘expressed in physical manifestation, seems suddenly to end when the material body is sealed in the tomb? Why is there this dreadful veil that prevents our access to Part One: led me to draw a number of where the loved one was present. How can it be that such a bond, one that may be assumed to exist in other realities in terms of certainty?