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very things that Don Juan was telling Carlos that he must do to “regrow” his awareness. You see, I had realized that all “alien interference” in my life changed from that point on. In retrospect, I understand that it was the constant study and becoming aware of the other realities that I had been going through which gave me the “platform” from which to resist this event of “eclipsing of realities”, which don Juan calls discipline in holding the energy fields together. Subsequent to this event, there were numerous “attempts” to “play with my head” by these forces... and I was certainly amazingly aware of them. When I slept, I no longer did so in my former manner; it was as though I slept only half way, and a whole other part of me was awake and watching. I could hear voices and whispers and activity; I could hear strange breathing and feel ghostly fingers touching me from time to time, which I would fling away mentally. When these activities would begin, as they did almost every night, I would turn on the radio softly, leave a light on, or simply sit up and read and mentally expand my awareness to keep them at bay. I felt that I was constantly surrounded by sniffing wolves looking for a sign of weakness or the scent of fear. One of the trickiest maneuvers was when “they” planted the thoughts in my mind that I had gotten out of the bed and walked in another room... as I came to the doorway and put my hand out to touch the wall, I realized that my hand went right through it and that I was clearly being manipulated in my mind. I snapped myself back into my body and forced my energy to hold its place, endeavoring with all my might to move my hand. When my fingers suddenly moved, it was like the “attack” popped like a balloon, and the harassment ceased. Over and over again I performed these maneuvers of awareness and discipline - unaware of don Juan’s remarks about it - feeling that it was the obvious course of action. The last night “they” came, I was lying in the bed, drifting to sleep, and the sleepiness was like a drug which was one of the “warning signs”. I could “see” through my closed eyes, which was another warning, and hear raspy breathing behind me. Then, I felt a touch on my back and all the force inside me exploded in anger and I pulled my “energy body” back and forced my arm to fling off the covers. It took several tries to get it to “connect” before the arm actually moved, and at the same time I was forcing my eyes open to see with the physical apparatus so that I would know that my fields were connected. As my eyes came open, I saw a large lizard, silhouetted by the light of the 323 High Strangeness — Part Three