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filled me. 240 © THE SESSIONS multiplied a millionfold. I could only hold on, remembering not tofall off into the distracting light show. Then everything stopped! The darkness opened to light, and on the other side ofspace all was utterly still. Then the words "just because it is possible" emerged out of nothingness and The great power sought to fill all possibilities. It was "amoral," but it was love, and itjustwas. There wasno benevolent god, only this primordial power. All of my ideas and beliefs seemed absurdly ridiculous. I never wanted to forget this. Iwas aware I could open my eyes and relate to those around me. But first I had to wait for all this to solidify, to allow the fullness of the experience to congeal, so I could bring it back to the others. I wondered, "Why come back?" Iwas reluctant to open my eyes. When I did, the room seemed very bright, but otherwise quite as I had left it. Several months later, in the dose-response study, Elena had a chance to revisit this state with a double-blind high dose. This time she was much less anxious before we started. At 20 minutes she began: It came onfast and big, and an incredible pressure arose in my head, pushing me back. It blasted me into the realm in which pure living energy begins to take form. As it began to slow down, I saw the process of separated awareness. This slowing down createsform and consciousness. Before the slowing down, it's not there. It's not unconscious, but not conscious. It's real, ofits own substance, notfragmented. It's amazing how slowly things move here on Earth! Going out and slowing down into the periphery, to the fringes of it, intoform. There is the endless outflow ofcreation, effortless, and then this vast process takes it back in. My little piece ofenergy goes in and out, too, not more or less than any other piece. You can't die. You can't go away. You can neither add nor subtract. There is a continual outflow that is immortality. The "Iam" notion goes around and around. I have the cer- tainty of that. There were loads of paradoxes. I was not disoriented but there was no orientation. I didn't know where or who I was, but there was nothing to