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This is true. 230 * THE SESSIONS in South America use otherplants to fill out and make the DMT more reason- able. Pure DMT seems empty or hollow. The morning of Carlos's 0.4 mg/kg dose, he was sweating and shaking when I entered the room. Carlos said, "It's a body fear primarily. It's stress. This is no chance to build up to it. It's just there so fast. With Datura, I have the fear of death but you can build up to it gradually. On that 0.2 dose last week, I thought you gave me the wrong drug, that I was poisoned, that I had died. The duress is terrible. I take substances to leave my body, not to put it under duress." I tried to provide some consolation: "This dose will be more, but not qualitatively different." He began chanting as I started giving him the drug. His chanting abruptly stopped halfway through the flush. He let out a big sigh at 2 minutes. He resumed chanting, more softly this time, at 3V2 minutes. At 12 minutes he said, Please remove my eyeshades. Laura did so. It was really quite special. I wasn't humanfor about three and a half minutes. This dose creates a level of stress that's unparalleled in the annals of Carlos's history. He cleared his throat and said, / met myselfas the Creator. "Creator of... ?" The Creator ofall. I've had that realization before, but not at this level. "One of our volunteers likes to say "You can still be an atheist until 0.4.'" Carlos took a deep breath and began telling us what had happened. It was difficult to keep up with his rate of sharing his incredible story. There was the sound of the entire universe, more like a hum. It was pervasive, overwhelming. I thought, "Holy moly, how did I get into this?" Things weren't right and were getting more wrong all the time. Then my ability to perceive as a human being winked out. There were no more emo- tions, because emotions work only up to a certain point.