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Dose #1: I'"flew" on and saw clowns performing. They were like toys, or animated clowns. I had the overwhelming urge to laugh. Iwas kind ofself-conscious Dose #2: CONTACT THROUGH THE VEIL: 2 + 213 Sara also came back for the tolerance study. Let's again refer to her notes from that remarkable day. They require almost no additions from the ones I took at bedside. The first trip was lots ofspinning colors. Iwas scared, but I kept telling myself, "Relax, surrender, embrace." Then I saw what I can only describe as a Las Vegas-casino type ofscene, allflashing and whirling lights. Iwas rather disappointed. Here I'm expecting this profound spiritual experience and I get Las Vegas! But then, before I had much time to be disappointed, about it at first, but I couldn't contain myselfand I laughed out loud watch- ing those clowns. Rick told me the clowns are a common experience. Infact, he said, "Oh, you saw the clowns?" as ifthey were oldfriends or something. Then he said, "Yes, they're hilarious." I felt more confident and not as scared. This time the aggressive spinning colors were almost familiar. Sud- denly, a pulsating "entity" appeared in the patterns. It sounds weird to describe it as "Tinkerbell-like." It was trying to coax me to go with it. At first Iwas reluctant, because I didn't know about finding my way back. By the time I made up my mind that I did want to go with it, I could tell the drug was starting to wear off, and I wasn't "high" enough to follow it. I told it, "/ can't go with you now. See, they want me back." It didn't seem to be offended and, infact, "followed" me back until I sensed it had reached its boundary. [felt like it was saying good-bye. Reentry was slow, and I was reluctant to take offthe eyeshades. Everyone's eyes were so sparkling when I took offmy eyeshades! I knew Sara was on the verge of some breakthrough, but that her strong reaction to the colorful hallucinations were somehow holding her back. "Can you stop short of contact with the colors? You can't help seeing them, but you can stop yourself from responding to them."