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193 It was a nursery. A high-tech nursery with a single Gumby, three feet tall, attending me.*Ifelt like an infant. Not a human infant, but an infant CONTACT THROUGH THE VEIL: 1 Iwent with them as you suggested. There were clinical researchers prob- ing into my mind. There were sort oflongfiber-optic things that they were putting into my pupils. This was years after we had stopped using the pupil measuring card, so it had nothing to do with what was happening in Room 531.1 asked Jim what that was like for him. It was pretty weird, but I figured it was just the drug. Jeremiah, at fifty years of age, was one of our oldest volunteers. He had recently retired from decades of service in the armed forces and was be- ginning a new phase of his professional life by obtaining training in clini- cal counseling. He was also starting his third family, and he underwent a face-lift halfway through the dose-response study. He was a busy man. During the first few minutes of his non-blind high dose of DMT, Jeremiah burst out in several exclamations: "Whoa!" "Wow!" "Incred- ible!" He began beaming, a huge smile across his face. He seemed to be having a great time. relative to the intelligences represented by the Gumby. It was aware ofme, but not particularly concerned. Sort ofa detached concern, like a parent would feel looking into a playpen at his one-year-old lying there. As I went into it, I heard a sound: hmmm. Then I heard two to three male voices talking. I heard one ofthem say, "He's arrived." I felt evolution occurring. These intelligences are looking over us. There is hope beyond the mess we are makingfor ourselves. I couldn't change the experience at all. Icouldn't have anticipated it or even imagined it. It was a total surprise! I tried to open to love but that was silly. All Icould do was observe it. I found this last comment especially interesting because it challenged my assumption that what Jeremiah encountered was a product of his mind, rather than a "true" perception. "Opening to love" is shorthand for an effort to change the anxiety caused by an unexpected or unpleasant expe- rience into love. If what Jeremiah had just encountered was only a product