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85 because of my involvement with Tom, but also for parting ways from my brother and possibly breaking from programming. I apparently wasn’t supposed to do that. So suddenly, eyes were on me. All throughout 2002 and into 2003 we both began experiencing what I’ve now termed “sidetrack circus diversion/fear and paranoia generator!” incidents (cue circus music here) designed to do exactly as it sounds — send us into a tailspin of fear and paranoia, obsessively going in loops about these distracting incidents...and even hopefully break us up, if all went well. Had we been different people, and had the situation been left unchecked, it could have easily disintegrated into the type of paranoia and craziness one sometimes finds with abductees. The thing that ultimately saved me was also one of my weaker points - my ability to tune stuff out, turn away and go back about my business and put it all out of my head. It’s one of my big downfalls because it’s kept me in a state of obliviousness or denial over the years with regards to certain things waaaay longer than necessary, but yet it’s also the same response/behavior that kept my frequency leveled. Being relatively level (regardless of the reason), versus being worked up, paranoid and terrorized probably prevented far worse things from happening to me, which carried me through until I finally gleaned my big moment of insight regarding “the fear frequency” in April of 2003. http://in2worlds.net/the-higher-self Once I was told about the fear frequency, and heard that this is what was being done to me all those months, I stopped whatever fear I did have literally, overnight. And consequently, most of these random weird events stopped as well, reflecting that shift in awareness. I couldn’t take any of it seriously anymore, and so they no longer had a use for doing that stuff. And as of this point, Tom and I rarely if ever get incidents like this anymore. That’s pretty astounding in its implications. To go from there to here means something pretty big changed. That something was our mindsets, and it’s something more abductees could benefit from realizing. I want to stress again though that remaining in a state of denial — ie, head in the sand - about things wouldn't have worked forever. Ignoring stuff will only get you so far, as I outline further in Part III. But again, it at least helped carry me through until I could get to a place of awareness that enabled me to tackle it all straight on, with no fear. Part II - My Own Experiences —_—_—_—_—— ee *e