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64 My first known, overt abduction - October, 2001, Orange County, CA. I had recently come across a really realistic picture of a “Gray" which intrigued me. It was fun to stare at and contemplate the idea of meeting Grays, and the picture's realistic nature made that easy to do. I sat on my couch with the picture in my hand, staring intensely at it for what was probably like 20 minutes. I stared so hard and for so long that I was pretty much almost in a self-imposed trance. After the 20 minutes or so I noticed that the background noise had muted. I couldn't hear my roommate Todd's TV down the hall anymore. Curious, I looked up. Snapping out of my thoughts didn’t make the sound of the TV come back. In fact, there was now the feeling of a veil of control descending on me. I jumped up, alarmed. I was wide awake, standing in the middle of my room, and literally felt my willpower and ability to control myself slipping away with every second. It was VERY quick and very powerful, whatever it was. I still couldn't hear Todd’s TV though, due to the muting effect around me. I spun around wildly, and inside I yelled "NO! NO!! RUN!! RUN!!! LEAVE THE ROOM!! GET OUT OF HERE NOW!!" But I couldn't do it. I was actually arguing back teow . te and forth with myself: “Just go lie down and wait. They'll be here shortly.” "RUN!! GET OUT OF HERE!!! NOW!!! GO!!!" "Go lie down. It'll be alright. They'll be here shortly." I had this back and forth panicked argument, my fight-or-flight reflex attempting to be overridden by this calm thought form telling me to go lie down. It'll be okay. They'll be here shortly. Just go lie down. I changed into clothes to sleep in as fast as I could, knowing that I was under control, and not able to even fight back. No willpower. I was literally like a puppet, and I knew it. I knew I was acting like a crazy person. But I obeyed anyway, turned out my lights save for my Chasing Phantoms i The Obvious Stuff as an Adult The following incidents are not actual memory flashes, but, they are pretty obvious... In the end I conceded. I wish I hadn't, I should have run like hell.