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52 arriving late to the game. Or did I? As I later had to realize, this stuff usually doesn’t just erupt for a person overnight. If they were able to find me and snag me at 27, then it means they were already well aware of who I was before that. And that’s when I had to really start looking over my life and begin to try to make sense of what was basically a bunch of mish mash indirect evidence. As it was, even with the one overt abduction experience, I still didn’t have clear answers as to who took me, how, to where, and why. I certainly know what they wanted me to believe — that it was Gray aliens, and it was good, so invite this into my reality so it can happen again! - but it doesn’t mean that was the truth of the situation. And that’s where things got frustrating. The very basic questions outlined earlier - Who’s taking me?? How was I targeted, and when did it start?? Why am I being taken?? - I had no answers for. Totally clueless. The abduction and mind control books I began looking at to help in my research and quest for answers were great and all, but I couldn’t help but notice how the people being featured in these materials were so confident about what their situation was. They had concrete answers. When you have answers you can speak with some authority on the subject, or you can at least be held up with confidence by the authors who are writing about your story. Additionally, my situation didn’t exactly fit or match up with anything I’d been reading about in my research, since most research tends to be focused on aliens, with little mention of human/military rogue abductions and programming. That’s slowly changing though, as this subject begins to get more exposure. For the most part though I’ve had just a whole lotta confusion in my journey, as do most MILABs targets. What I eventually wound up doing, a variation of which you'll see in this particular section, was to sit down and begin documenting everything and anything I could think of that was either obviously abduction related, or highly suspect. And this is a good idea for any abductee to do. In doing so, you’re rounding everything up and getting it all organized, which can help bring up other memories and incidents that may have been forgotten. For me, I typed up anything I could remember going as far back as I could, putting my memories Chasing Phantoms i at the end of Part II.) I was 27 years old by that point. Talk about