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196 from nowhere and sitting firm in my seat, it slowly subsided, and I was able to slowly return to my job duties. This wouldn’t be the only time I’ve had a strong urge to run away from my life, leave Tom, abandon Kitty and just run, but it was the most notable since it occurred in the middle of a work day, causing me to have to ride it out in my office with the potential for other people to witness me acting strangely. I’ve thankfully never acted on any of these urges. For that reason they don’t seem to happen anymore. I’ve proven to be too strong a logical thinker, not a blind reactor. In retrospect, these urges seemed to be attempts at preemptive timeline manipulation. I hadn’t yet written this book or formulated my website in September of 2005...but it was coming up right around the corner. I purchased the domain name “in2worlds.net” in October of 2005, one month after this incident, and began furiously finishing up the content of my website as of December, which I elaborate on in more detail in the “About” section on my site. And then began writing this book in March of 2006. And that particular temp gig that the programming wanted me to abandon wound up giving me a lot of tools that I would need for how to format this book. So yeah, some big things were coming up within a matter of months. Hence, the intense urge to run away from my life and change the course of how everything would go, just prior to it all. So with that in mind, it becomes a battle of retaining your sentience and free will. It’s easy to slip and get lazy and to allow life to drag you around by the nose, so you don’t have to think. The zoo is designed to suck our energy at every turn, which in turn contributes to getting lazy if we’re not aware and don’t take precautions. This loss of energy is our weak point, the way that they can get in and chip away at our lives. So if you’re an abductee, you have to find the energy to be able to stalk yourself and pay attention, and take back control over your own life. It becomes a matter of thinking before doing, every day, with everything. Is that thought really your own? Is that urge you have really the optimal thing to be doing right now? Is it logical? Does it make any sense? Are you able to pause, breathe, detach, and foresee what the negative consequences would be from doing this? If so can you now resist acting on these urges (which most likely aren’t even your own) and go down a different path...one based on sentience and free will? Chasing Phantoms —_—_—_— Ee"