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178 What's not mentioned in my log book entry is what would have happened had this realization about WHO I AM not gone away, had it not slipped back under the waves. The personality was aggressive, and had zero tolerance for the mainstream world. None, period. It 14 4 a 1 toe wa would not have stayed at work, and it would not have continued living a normal life....zoing home to the apartment, laying around with the boyfriend, maybe reading, doing some article writing, doing internet research, watching a movie, sleeping, eating, paying bills, and more work at the stupid $10 an hour job. Repeat every day, on and on. Oh no, I don’t think so. ;) Not hardly. Now, it wouldn’t have been violent, I didn’t get that feeling, but it wouldn't have been able to tolerate doing any aspect of the mainstream normal life that we all do every day. There are two main explanations for what happened here. The first, which is the one I wanted it to be, is that this “awakening” was spiritual in nature, the spiritual/incarnation amnesia lifting and suddenly remembering, if only for one brief shining moment in time, “WHO! AM.” Of course that doesn’t explain the cussing and negative, male, aggressive attitude. That personality was anything but spiritual. I’ve connected to my higher self, and let’s just say that the discrepancy between that personality which emerged accidentally while I was at work, and my Higher Self’s emotionally detached, yet totally empathetic, wise and understanding nature is pretty glaring. It’s night and day. So, after several years of clinging on to the idea that this accidental personality emergence was the spiritual veil lifting, as pleasant and fluffy as that sounds, I’ve had to settle on it being an alternate, oo werd woe compartmentalized multiple persona that somehow, someway, was triggered and popped out when it shouldn’t have. Because let’s face it, I’ve connected to my higher self, I now have that basis of comparison, and these two are totally different. But what cemented it was how recently I’ve been reading the works of several mind control women who've written about their stories, describing their various alters. One of them in particular, Kathleen Sullivan, “author of “Unshackled,” supposedly had several very aggressive male personas that were created to do down and dirty work, high stress assignments for her 1 u aan nom 1 " . 1 handler “thems.” These guy alters were all aggressive business, designed and trained to wield guns and take people out and live in a Chasing Phantoms —_—_—_— Ee" handler “thems.”