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172 shrink up in paranoid, self conscious fear. Be a helpless victim. All the while believing that these guys were really the good guys, who “help when they can” and are part of the same soul group as us. ;) When I was talking about this topic to a male abductee over the internet, he said that their attempts to psychologically destroy him with these same tactics only backfired. I’d said the same thing about my own situation, so it was funny to hear him say that. And what we mean by backfire is that instead of converting us _ into by backfire that of is mean by backfire is that instead of converting us _ into angry/paranoid/hateful/fearful tools that serve the dark stuff, it backfired, and succeeded in just making us all that more aware, and switching us over to the opposite direction of what was intended. But as my very aware boyfriend has noted on many occasions, they always take a risk when they make the decision to fully go after someone. There’s a high probability that they will succeed and the target will be converted/absorbed/taken down....but there’s always the chance that it'll blow up in their faces. Then again....it could all be more layers of games within games, as already mentioned earlier in the book. ;) Who really knows what's actually going on here. Several months after Joe relayed these revelations, I had a “dream” into mean us where I was shown what reality ‘would be like without “The Program” in place. It scared the shit out of me, is all Ican say. It was brief, but I heard a male human voice somewhere off to the side or behind me, narrating, but I couldn’t see him. (Communicating through implants most likely.) And then I found myself...hovering in an empty void of total nothingness, my feet hanging in mid-air, accompanied by the most intense feeling of panic and anxiety I’ve probably ever felt. It’s really hard to explain, but I’d have to say it really did actually maybe feel like how a void in reality might feel. “THIS is what it’s like without ‘the program” I was told. Kind of like, Do you get it now? Without fake reality, this is what you’d have. Not very nice, is it? I woke from that experience in a full panic, gasping for breath, nerves on end, really messed up. Whether somebody was really showing me something valid, just as a useful and informative FYI, or whether it was all manipulative mind control games designed to break me psychologically, I can only guess. I actually suspect it could be a mix of both. But this does make me wonder though how many other abductees are being targeted in a similar fashion, given revelations and insights, whether true or not, which are designed to try to derail them in life. If Chasing Phantoms —_—_—_— Ee"