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seen “a bigger picture,” and have more insight and patience. Also, “You have this thing in your head that [enables you] to access any kind of information telepathi- cally. So you have this kind of informa- tional pliability. I mean, you can get any information you need.” Sara felt that the purpose of her flight over the desert was to survey the planet for “planetary resources,” in order “to see what is the survivability of an area like that” in case there was to be a “huge planetary shakeup.” The desert area seemed to be a _ potentially “stable environment” in case of a major upheaval because it was high and flat. As she experienced herself flying in an alien incarnation she felt herself “going back and forth” between human and alien forms, as if trying to make a decision. The human body identity was aesthetically pleasing for its “flesh and things,” while at the same time she was drawn to the greater perspective of the alien identity. Sara returned then to the present and went on to describe a huge, ominous dark cloud covering the sky that seemed to exert a magnetic pull upon her, “like throwing dark, black tar over my head.” The cloud seemed to Sara to embody the projected negative consciousness and vibrations of human beings. Its impact was debilitating and made her feel victimized. The cloud functioned as a kind “bouncing” around her in the room with the white canopy bed. “I feel like someone’s almost throwing me up and down.” Two “Mengus-like guys” have been doing this. She felt as if there were a magnetic field between their fingers and her body. The bouncing about “was fun. . . I was laughing,” and then the beings talked to each other, “‘not to me” and left headfirst through the window. These were friendly visits, “like coming over for tea,” but the beings became “mad”’ after college because she was living such a “conventional, stupid life . . . a very shortsighted existence,” especially when she took a job in business. (ee ne ee Ds Sa? Sara associated to another experi- ence later in her life. She was alone, lying down on the deck to get a suntan, when “T felt something hovering on top of me.” She saw a figure that “was like a cross between a Mengus being and a person.” It was “less human in shape, but lighter and free-floating.” Sara received a communication from the being, “This is very important.” The intention, she was told, was not aggressive, but some sort of test of “genetic compatibility or some- thing,” an “infiltration,” “a feasibility test,” “dimensional merging.” I asked Sara to tell me more of what she meant by “dimensional merging.” She then described what I believe to be the central image of our first session. “It is like a plane,” she said, “a sheet of translucent cellophane.” There is “like a huge shattering of glass,’ and a “razor blade thin” slit opens between this Earth/physical dimension and the realm from which the beings come. . . . The experience was not like anything she had known in human sexual relations. “The being itself felt aggressive, and I did not like that part of it. There was not an emotional component to the whole thing on its part... It was more like a scientific explorer tetritory.” I asked if there were orgiastic activity. “It was much, much, much subtler,” she replied. “It was not entirely happening in this dimension,” of mask or shield to hide some sort of “hokey” craft of the sort human beings would design if they were to make a spaceship. This craft was the source of negative vibration and was piloted by a human being. It appeared utterly “stupid” from Sara’s point of view. “I’m just loathing this whole thing,”’ she said. The aircraft's ‘“‘purpose,” she said, was “ostensibly war,’ but not war to kill people. The war was “with people’s heads . . war to control people.” She felt “this huge desire to shield myself from this thing.” Next Sara described childhood was Next Sara described childhood encounters of “levitating,” “floating,” and 35