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felt from Mengus enabled Sara to really listen to him and appreciate that “‘there’s no margin for error .. . I have a weird sense that he’s dead now,” she said, and: “T kind of feel sad.” I asked Sara what made her feel that Mengus was dead. She replied, “I can just read his vibration, and when I go to find it now it’s just like it’s died and been recycled. I can’t access him anymore and he feels dead.”” Mengus “was really nice. I would say, maybe like my first real teacher.” She has “the weirdest feeling that one of the little things I drew, the baby ones, was .. . Mengus’s new incarnation.” with them again.” Sara felt that to be with these beings, at least in the happy innocent way she had just spoken of, she would have to go backward in time, “before this life... I think I'll try it,” she said. Next she found herself flying in a white spaceship with a number of little windows. It was flying over a desert area—” We're just whizzing around, and I can see down below and it’s so beautiful . . . I don’t know if I’ve ever been happy like that in this life, just like unreservedly, all the time, happy. Wow! We come over this ridge, and there’s this big expanse of desert, and I see these reds and these yellows and oranges, and it’s just like sensorially just scrumptious. It’s just delicious.” In this life her body was skeleton-like, “like Mengus’s . . . It’s creepy, and your bones are kind of little and brittle and it’s kind of creaky. You walk in a very disjointed sort of way.” Again Sara was struck by the joy of the maneuverability she felt within the space vehicle, how “just neat to zip around” it Returning to her experience as a young child, Sara spoke of the floating/ levitating phenomena described earlier and the sense that these capacities, although “really fun,” had come to her from “past life.” They were “not fun in just the conventional sense,” but part of how we evolve. “I consciously under- stood that true fun can be a lot of work and processing.” The vibrational energy of the translucent beings, Sara said, “was much more elevated than the convention- al vibration you feel here . . . They’re just so much more conscious! They don’t keep everything suppressed in their uncon- scious. They’re just awake. They’re awake and they’re responsible, and they’re receptive and they’re concise and precise and their eyes are open . . . Their hearts are open too. They’re not afraid, and they’re not stingy and selfish about their love, and it’s just really nice. They’re so, so, SO, so nice .. . I get the sense there’s a translucent thing on the back of their head... Our heads aren’t translucent, you know are covered with hair and every- thing. We cover up all of our little things that we don’t want people to see, and they just, it’s like wide open. You can see right into it, and they’re telepathic so they can’t keep secrets that way. So as a result everyone’s just a lot more together. They’re not in denial the same way. I like that. God! I like that a lot. I wish I could be was. From this alien/past life perspective Sara spoke of the “stupid” things that humans do and the temptation to confront them directly. But “it’s much more useful to be subtle and make sure they thought of it themselves.” Human beings are “so egocentric they won’t change otherwise. They haven’t. They’ ve got this ego thing that they like to hold on to and they get really threatened .. .” At the same time there are “precious” things about human beings. “They can smell flowers, for instance. And that’s like so incredible, and they get to feel the sun on their skin.” As an alien being “I was operating out of less physicality, so you’re lighter at one level . . . There are certain advantages. One is you don’t get into these things like depression. But on the other hand it’s a little disjointed and a little bit removed . .. The olfactory sense is not there the same way. You don’t get the depth of smell, for instance,” she ob- served. At the same time the aliens have 34