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compassion to the entity. After that, the presence seemed to dissipate. About a week before she was to come East to meet with me, Sara was in an automobile accident, the effects of which repeated the intense pain in her head and neck that had begun five years earlier. Because of this car accident, she was forced to delay her trip several days. Miguel was driving the car and became dizzy. He started to “space out” with distortion of vision, and they both felt as if some “magnetic” force were pulling the vehicle. The car went off the road, over an embankment, and “folded in on itself.” Sara suffered cervical strain and wrench- ing of tendons and ligaments, and she was taken to the hospital in an ambu- lance. When Sara would shut her eyes after this accident, in addition to seeing the “light beings,” she could also differentiate a second type of entity. When “I shut my eyes I see them... I see these guys... down in a little row, like three or four little dark guys. Like gibbering.”’ Later she said, “it seems to me like these guys are in my head.” In contrast to the “light beings,” she described the “other ones” as “frenetic.” Shortly after the accident, she felt compelled to do her “listening” every day and to write down the information she obtained. She felt this would render additional accidents unnecessary. A few days after the accident Sara and Miguel had an experience in which an unexplained green/yellow light penetrat- ed their room. Miguel is_ ordinarily fearless, Sara said, but they were both terrified, and he appeared to have lost conscousness for a_ time during the incident. Sara felt as if she were “physical- ly pinned down” and unable to move. She aaeee (4. Abt Leet Lee 8? saw “three things hovering above me” like “three shrouded heads,” and thought to herself “something like, listen, we’re communicating. This is for real. Some- thing like that, like, get your act together and start writing it down.” Then “the whole thing kind of dissipated.” Sara also reports having observed unusual craft in the sky. On one occasion she was with a girlfriend and they both saw “a strange thing hovering above.” Sara looked up, “and for a split second, I felt like . . . I felt like I was there and I was here. I felt like I’m in that spaceship, looking at myself. I felt like I was two places at one time, and then I started to think, ‘Oh, wow! That’s another whole possibility, you’re coming back to see yourself.” On another occasion she saw what looked like a star. “But it wasn’t time for stars. It was like an afternoon. Really bright. Too low, but at a distance.” After a while “I kind of got fed up with it. I’m like, if you’re not going to do anything, then I’m going home. So I got in my car and started to drive away, and then it came at me, and then it came at me really quickly and flew over me... It looked like a flying star. It was just so bright.” At the time she thought to herself, “God, I’ve got to tell Miguel,” but she did not, and “it was like I forgot about aE it!” Sara’s wish to be hypnotized grew out of her desire to “know what’s true ... 1 don’t want to know a story that I make up or anybody else makes up,” she said. “I really want to know! I really want to know! It’s the only thing that’s important,” even though “it may be really complicated and really overlaid and everything.” She wanted to “get at” what “these little guys are.” Finally, Sara wants to be responsible for her experiences. “To tell you the honest truth,” she said, “TI don’t know if I believe myself . . . There’s a part of me that really, really does. But there’s a part of me that doesn’t, and that part feels like it’s destroying me.” Sara’s first words after being being brought into an altered state of conscious- ness were, “I see my grandparents’ house ... I'm oscillating between that and my white canopy bed which was in my parents’ house when I was little. ’'m remembering a lot about falling dreams that were a series of dreams I had in that 32