PIHKALAnthologyShulgin_page_225

PIHKALAnthologyShulgin | page 225 | https://thedailydialectics.com/pdfs/education/chemistry/phenylethylenes/PIHKALAnthologyShulgin/PIHKALAnthologyShulgin.pdf

But sometimes it got to me - the knowledge that I was the fill-in, the second-best - and my deeper self, less amenable to clarity of reason and purpose than the rest of me, showed its anger and fear in strange ways, at unexpected moments, despite my determination to avoid any obvious signs of…